I’ve tried and tried for the past three days and I’m just having one of the longest writer’s blocks I’ve had in years. I’ve written a first sentence twenty times and I can’t get my thoughts to flow. So this post you’re about to read is called “Unanswered questions of the curious mind”. A long time ago, I wrote this post on the Notes section on Facebook.
Difficult times give you the need to believe in something and I am no longer an atheist (not very spiritual either) but this is a pretty good look into my teenage version’s brain. So, here goes :
Unanswered Questions of the Curious Mind – January 1, 2011
I was at the temple with my dad this evening. Considering how it’s New year and there are very few temples around this area, it was extremely crowded. I being the person who doesn’t pray was looking around. If there were approximately 100 people, I saw 70 of them with eyes closed, praying like there was no tomorrow. I thought, does God answer every single prayer? That was when I remembered, someone told me, We are all God’s puppets. If God is making us do the things we do, then why do we put ourselves in a situation where we need such desperate help from the unknown power?
I remember the times when my mother told me, Pray to God before you go for your exams. How does that help? He helps me in writing my exam better? If God was going to help me, why did I have to study? Why not play more?
I saw in front of a church,’ God answers all prayers.’ If he does, why the war widows? Why not let a happy family be a happy family? Why the infinite amounts of orphans? I could swear, most of their parents died during a happy period.
Why the number of families who commit suicide?
I’ve heard stories that said “Lord Shiva is the God of death.” Really? So how come Yamadharma exists?
I tell my sister a story, and the tenth person who hears it, hears a completely different one. We’re the hundredth generation. What makes everybody think the story is true?
They just found the place Krishna lived in, underwater. Where is he now? Heavens? How did he go there?
Who told us about heavens and hell?
Psychiatrists can prove through hypnotism that people see a light when they die, that they see souls and a soul master who can predict the future. Is that God? Which God is he?
5th grade History text book says, Man came from monkeys. Were Adam and Eve monkeys?
Who were early men? God had kids. God had clothes. So Adam and Eve came into existence before God?
In that case, Who put them here? If you tell me that the story of Adam and Eve is just a fantasy, how can you believe that the story of God isn’t ?!
Who has seen God? Who saw the way they dressed?
Ramayana was written by Valmiki said my comic book.
How about the other stories? Who wrote them? Who saw them? Which of them is still alive to prove it?
I saw David Blaine’s magic on tv yesterday. He survived doing the kind of magic, most people would die doing. Is he God? Does he have supernatural powers? How?
A confused soul I may be. But if one person can answer every one of my questions with proof, I’ll believe that God existed.
Yet again, this was written a long time ago and I don’t really agree with all of it right now, but I find it interesting that I would have given something like this so much thought because over the years, I’ve developed a very “don’t know, don’t care” attitude towards these questions.
Anyway, I’m going to find a way to fix my writer’s block. Until then, have a good week ahead of you 😀